I am so grateful to be starting 2011! It is a year for endings and beginnings! I can't believe only 8 months until I sign out of the Army! I can't believe my babies are growing so fast! I can't believe we are looking at buying land and building a house! And in the country! I'm a suburb girl for sure, but I'm really excited about creating a home for our girls to grow up in! I'm excited that we'll have all of that land for Justin to hunt and to teach the girls to hunt and fish and ride four-wheelers and whatever else we want to do there! I am so ready to spend my days keeping my house and my lawn looking the way I want them to! I am so ready to spend my days taking my girls to dance classes and whatever they want! I'm so ready to be close to family; to become part of a community; to not have to worry about packing up and moving again! This year is going to bring about alot of changes, alot of expectations, and alot of stress! I pray that God provides for us in all that we need; strength, patience, guidance, strength :) I'm ready! But this Army stuff, toddler stuff, infant stuff, geographically single stuff, is just not working for me...it is exhausting. I'm sure I"m not the only one to have to deal with this or more, but it makes me tired! I miss my husband! I miss Tori (part-time evening nanny)! The good news is: my 20 years is almost finished!!!
Oh, and Jemma is rolling over! And Joss is getting so verbal! And her teacher told me to bring undies to school, and we'll try the real deal. She's confident that once she masters the undies at school, she'll run with it at home and everywhere else! I'm so excited at the prospect!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Thursday, November 11, 2010
All of It
As a war veteran, a mother, a wife, a Christian, a cancer survivor, I find myself wondering what to write about. Of course, most important would be my husband and kids; but I have lived so much! I have so many stories I'd like to share. Right now, I am sitting on the couch with laptop in place, bottle to my 2 month old's mouth, listening to "Who wants to be a millionaire" and to my beautiful 2 year old daughter rattle off her demands: in toddler-speak, "I want nana!" "I want this!" "I want apple juice." Of course, these all need to be attended to immediately. And today is a rare occasion where she is into everything, which tells me two things: I need to get off the computer and pay attention to her and/or she's ready for her nap.
I believe it's the latter, so hold on a minute...whoa! Okay, bad mom moment! Her diaper, I mean, Pull-up, was completely soaked...so bad that it was through her PJ's (mind you, its 11am; but it IS Veterans' Day) and poopy. I knew it needed changed when we got up at 7am this morning, asked her to change it several times, but eventually it fell off my radar when she told me no everytime and busied herself with other activities...like digging through the drawer in the bathroom that has all of her hair accessories, and opening the fridge to find a snack, and moving every one of her books from the basket to a well-traveled path on the carpet!
Okay, so I feel like small slipups like this periodically are acceptable when you consider I am doing this all alone (most days). Hubs works in the oilfields of Oklahoma and western Texas. Currently he's on a 3 week rotation, which means he works 3 weeks straight (almost literally with 30-plus hour days), and then flies home for a week. The week is so important to all of us; it allows him to bond with the girls at record speed, and it allows me and him to re-energize and re-connect!
So the current sacrifice of separation is due to me being in the Army. In 2007, we met; got married and had a baby the following year; diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 2009, and after a 9 month battle, was told I had NED (no evidence of disease) and then we were relocated (called permanent change of station (PCS)) to Rock Island Arsenal, IL and bought a house in Davenport, IA. I'll also mention that shortly after our move, I found out I was pregnant with number two and gave birth in 2010. To say it's been a busy few years is a huge understatement! But now, I am within a year of retirement from the Army, and we need a continuous income coming in as I transition next year so we can get a mortgage and settle down back in Oklahoma (where I met Justin while I was serving with a Reserve unit).
While I am struggling daily missing my husband, and being a single parent to a toddler and a newborn; I am thrilled that I am closing in on retirement and settling down with my family, possibly as a stay-at-home-mom! It has been a long, wonderful journey; but my priorities in life have certainly changed! I am so ready to make my family my central purpose in life!
Okay, need to go grab a shower and lunch before these two peanuts wakeup!!
I believe it's the latter, so hold on a minute...whoa! Okay, bad mom moment! Her diaper, I mean, Pull-up, was completely soaked...so bad that it was through her PJ's (mind you, its 11am; but it IS Veterans' Day) and poopy. I knew it needed changed when we got up at 7am this morning, asked her to change it several times, but eventually it fell off my radar when she told me no everytime and busied herself with other activities...like digging through the drawer in the bathroom that has all of her hair accessories, and opening the fridge to find a snack, and moving every one of her books from the basket to a well-traveled path on the carpet!
Okay, so I feel like small slipups like this periodically are acceptable when you consider I am doing this all alone (most days). Hubs works in the oilfields of Oklahoma and western Texas. Currently he's on a 3 week rotation, which means he works 3 weeks straight (almost literally with 30-plus hour days), and then flies home for a week. The week is so important to all of us; it allows him to bond with the girls at record speed, and it allows me and him to re-energize and re-connect!
So the current sacrifice of separation is due to me being in the Army. In 2007, we met; got married and had a baby the following year; diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 2009, and after a 9 month battle, was told I had NED (no evidence of disease) and then we were relocated (called permanent change of station (PCS)) to Rock Island Arsenal, IL and bought a house in Davenport, IA. I'll also mention that shortly after our move, I found out I was pregnant with number two and gave birth in 2010. To say it's been a busy few years is a huge understatement! But now, I am within a year of retirement from the Army, and we need a continuous income coming in as I transition next year so we can get a mortgage and settle down back in Oklahoma (where I met Justin while I was serving with a Reserve unit).
While I am struggling daily missing my husband, and being a single parent to a toddler and a newborn; I am thrilled that I am closing in on retirement and settling down with my family, possibly as a stay-at-home-mom! It has been a long, wonderful journey; but my priorities in life have certainly changed! I am so ready to make my family my central purpose in life!
Okay, need to go grab a shower and lunch before these two peanuts wakeup!!
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